I try not to take for granted God’s forgiveness of my sins. As if He owes me. I’ve got Him where I want Him. Know God’s weak spot and I run with it taking advantage of His generosity. No, not at all. For I’m wary of sin and its consequences. Of living more for me, I, and myself than for Him. So, I buck up and confess, asking the Lord to keep me sensitive to my weak spots. Where I slide off His path too easily, keeping me closer by His side.
What helps me is reading John 13, which tells of Jesus washing the disciples’ feet. You’d think it would be the other way around. But it isn’t. Foot washing is a humble act that is performed by a lowly household servant. Here Jesus does the washing, demonstrating that He’s there to help, to cleanse, and to renew those who truly follow Him. Jesus cares so much for His own. For me and you. He’ll stoop to His knees to lift us up, keeping us close by Him.
What happens after that foot-washing ceremony? A sad moment ensues. One that’s been in the works for a while. An apostle, Judas Iscariot, has been quietly troubled by what’s been going on. Maybe he’s disappointed with Jesus and the lack of a violent overthrow of Roman domination. Who knows? We do know that his hand has been in the till. A thief and a traitor, whose conscience becomes numb and dull. But whatever the reasons, he betrays Jesus.
After washing all the apostle’s feet, even Judas’, the moment of treachery commences. This duplicitous apostle dips his morsel of bread and is told by Jesus to leave and do his dirty work. Immediately, the betrayer slithers out entering the long night of darkness.
What grabs me in this story is that Jesus washes Judas’ feet. He’s one of the twelve. He eyeballs Judas, washing his feet. Could this be one last chance to right the wrong he’s planning? With all the rotten things Judas has done and will do, might there be another chance to repent? To confess? To get right with God? But Judas doesn’t budge. Never wavers. Singlemindly hell-bent.
As long as our hearts haven’t gotten hard as cement, as they had for Judas, there’s an opportunity to come back to Jesus. To be faithful to Him again. To stop ignoring God. To align yourself with Him no matter what, even when family and friends try to push and pull you in ungodly directions. Even then. Especially then. To have our feet washed by the Master, so to speak. For we’re determined never, ever to walk away from Him no matter what.
How about it?
Thank you, Jesus, for loving and forgiving me. Amen.